|July 2009 Big and 37 weeks pregnant|
|August 2009 - In-between - Dizzy was 9 days old when this picture was taken - our 2nd day out of hospital - notice the tartiness can't disguise the eyes wide shut knackeredness|
But somewhere along the way I developed a fault and my guarantee seems to have run out because I can't exchange my body for a new one it seems. Somewhere along the way, my subconscious mind began over riding my conscious mind and even though I had made a decision to eat healthily, I would get to the end of the day and realise I had rammed a ton of unwanted crap into my mouth all day long. How could that be? I used to have an iron will! but everyday, the same thing kept happening. I'd make a decision to eat healthily. Then I wouldn't be healthy at all. I downloaded hypnotherapy CDs to retrain my thinking and they used to work too. But now, I put one on and pass out within the first 30 seconds due to the relaxation hypnosis. Somehow, my unconscious mind has over-ridden my conscious and my subconscious mind!
|Dec 2009 - Skinny Again|
|Dec 2010 - half a stone heavier|
To get things started though, you can see what I have consumed so far today. You're not yawning are you? No? Hmm, okay. Here goes.
I have drunk three of these. What is it? It's a Tassimo macchiato which I added Starbucks toffee nut syrup to. Total calorie count, um. About 339 cals on coffee, plus about 35 cals per teaspoon of syrup. So that's 444 cals wasted already on three little drinks. Brilliant, I can see where things are going wrong already!
I am five foot nothing and in order to maintain my weight I only need about 1700 cals a day. Any more than that and I will put weight on. In order to lose weight I need to eat about 1200-1400 cals a day, but I am also quite active so all movement counts towards that calorie goal. I plan to burn an extra 200 cals at least through activity.
|Cinnamon and raisin bagels|
For breakfast I had one and a half cinnamon bagels with butter. See how my subconscious mind took over while I was getting ready to photograph them? I took a bite already. Hopeless! These total to: 540 cals plus the butter: an extra 36 cals. I tapped them into "My Plate" on The Livestrong website which records and tallies everything up for you. In fact it's even better today since I last used it. Very fast and everything I searched for was stored on there, although I cheated and used an American brand of bagel, but they are roughly the same.
So, it's 11.45 and this morning I have already consumed 1040 cals! Brilliant. It tells me I can eat a further 413 cals to stay within my limit today. Oh dear, I still have lunch and tea to go. I will continue to eat as I please and chronicle it, but I am certainly thinking about and realising where I am going wrong.